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Journal: I Wish

On days like today I wish I could just pick up the phone and call someone to come help me get clean, get meals, etc. I know there are services out there, but my embarrassment and shame and denial keep me from researching whether I qualify and can afford it. Continue reading →

Journal: #YesAllWomen Follow-up

Back when I was in college the first time, I remember the stats given out about violence against women basically amounting to "it's likely happened to a friend of yours or a friend of a friend." If the response from yesterday's journal is at all representative of the average, those numbers were way, way off in college. Continue reading →

Journal: The Shower Dilemma

To shower, or not to shower, that is the question. It is the question I ask myself every day in gauging my energy levels and physical capabilities. Out of everything on my daily to-do list, showering is the most physical, most energy demanding task on the list. I envy the average person who doesn't even have to think twice about it, just hops in and gets it done automatically every day. For me, showering has consequences. Continue reading →

Journal: Guilt. Fear. Stress. Shame. Loneliness.

Guilt. Fear. Stress. Shame. Loneliness. This is what I'm feeling. I feel guilty that I haven't written here in over a week. I feel fear when I think about writing here again after missing so many days. I feel stressed when I can't follow through with my commitments. I feel shame when I don't shower regularly. I feel lonely being at home all the time... Continue reading →